Do you know the saying "you can have it all, just not all at once"?
I am going to change this saying for the sake of this blog post, it now states "you can do it all, just not all at once". I had a tough week just gone, it was big lessons for this mama to learn. Little Miss A is changing her routine again. Every time this happens it throws me through a loop. I get very overwhelmed and emotional for a few days. I try to do what I was doing for her old routine, but I can't so I get frustrated, with her, myself and my situation. It really is like a big pity party for myself, which is totally fine. We need to have these moments in our life. I had a great chat with my hubby, because everything was just getting too much. We both decided that something needed to give and change. And we came up with a plan. A plan that will work for this new routine of hers and for me. I am excited by this new approach of getting out of the house to work, scheduling and being more present.
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Why yes I did, you heard right!
I couldn't believe that I booked a ticket to do a nude yoga workshop with the lovely Rosie Rees. I had a dream about it that night and then woke up the next day thinking what have I just done?! I was terrified at the thought of being naked in front of a bunch of strangers. But on Sunday night, I went along and I was wrong. Yes I was terrified. As I was walking up to the entrance of the yoga studio I was shaking and had butterflies in my tummy. I have never done anything like it before. People who know me will be shocked to read this post I'm sure. But I am all about trying new things. I bought my ticket to do this because I want toreconnect with myself after having Little Miss A. I want to feel confident in my body, changes from pregnancy and all. So what better way to do this than stripping down bare. Having nothing to hide behind. And I can say I did this. As I was doing the yoga moves I felt adoration for my body. I was really happy within my own skin for the first time in a very long time. I smiled from the inside out. Something had shifted...
What a whirl wind of a year it has been.
I reflect back and can't imagine what life was like without Ava, but I also can't believe that one year has passed since we first met. Motherhood has taught me so much about myself. It has rocked me to my core and at times got me questioning am I still me? It has shown me that I am actually a patient person and can be calm under pressure. Two traits I would never have thought would be within me. But this little human brought the best out in me. I used to think the saying "motherhood is the best but hardest job you will ever do" was a little clique, but it really sums it up. It is tough and so much hard work which you need to do sleep deprived for the first few weeks to few months (depending on how much your baby loves or doesn't love sleep). It brings you so much love that you can't even describe but with that comes the hard times where you are crying and have no idea how to make your baby stop screaming, asking "what do you need?". Here are my reflections from my first year of motherhood... A fun fact for you, did you know that men can't read our minds?
Yep, I'm being totally serious!! Now I know I'm not alone in thinking this fact was false at some stage in my life. Let me take you back to a time when you are with a boyfriend or husband. You are so pissed at the fact that they just did something that grates on you. So you glare at them, tell them telepathically that they shouldn't do that because it upsets you. You huff and puff and they just stare at you blankly asking if you are okay. You reply with a nod of the head and say "yes I'm fine" in a snotty tone. Your blood continues to boil. You say to yourself "can't he tell I hate when he does that? What is wrong with him?" He walks out of the room and you can feel your stress levels getting higher and higher. Resentment is starting to set in. For the rest of the day you are quiet and answer his questions in as short a sentence as possible. Does this sound familiar? Alone time can be scary for some people. Being in your own company with only your own thoughts can be daunting and super uncomfortable.
Some of my clients get anxious at just the thought of being on their own. They don't know what thoughts and feelings might come to the surface. But I gently nudge them in the direction of giving it a go and pushing through that resistance. Being with your own thoughts can be scary to some, but it can also provide the answers you are looking for with things that are going on in your life. I love working with mum's to help them reconnect with themselves after having a baby (whether it is baby number one, or baby number three). And when this disconnect pops up for them, they want to do anything but be by themselves because it is scary. If this is you, I want you to ask yourself this question...why and where am I feeling disconnected in myself? |