Is this for real or am I going crazy?

Do you listen to your intuition? 


Do you trust what it says to you? 


Are you sensitive or intune with what is around you? 


Have you seen or heard ghosts that other people can't see or hear? 


Back when I first wrote this blog post it was massive for me, some of my friends didn't  even know this about me. It is something I kept to myself and only shared with my family, husband and my best friends. 


I like to say that I'm sensitive. I'm not psychic. I'm not a medium and I don't speak to the dead. But I can feel them and sometimes hear them. I am very good at doing oracle card readings.


My intuition is turned up a notch higher than most people and I get very strong 'feelings' about things and people. 

I have always known that I was different when it comes to this sort of thing and it took me 25 years before I told people, even my closest friends about it. It was something I kept to myself because not a lot of people believe in this stuff, they are quick to shut it down and call you weird. And I completely understand why, but when you have this gift you know otherwise. 



When I met my now husband, I was so worried about telling him about my gift, I thought he would think I was crazy. But I had to tell him because weird stuff happens to me and I know he would have witnessed it eventually. Mum told me just to tell him and if he loves me, he will accept it and me for all that I am. And he did. He was so good about it and in the 9 years we have been together he has witnessed some of the odd things that happen to me. 



For instance, we went on a ghost tour with my mum and brother, something I will never do again by the way. While we were in the living room of this house I knew a tall man was standing behind me, I could feel him. The next thing the tour guide told us about this tall man that has been known to haunt that room. We then went on to the master bedroom and I couldn't physically walk into this room, it was like a wall was in my way. My heart began to race and I just knew something had happened in that room. I turned around and started to panic. The tour guide came to check on me and I asked him what happened in that room, he told me a lady had died in there while giving birth.



When I moved out of home I shut down my gift. I turned the volume right down and nothing happened to me for a while. I stopped using my oracle cards and listening to my gut instinct. I had, had enough of being different.



Then about five years ago I went and saw a psychic, she was amazing and so spot on. I saw her more as my spiritual adviser. She told me that my gift was given to me to be used and not suppressed, but it was up to me whether I wanted to go down that path. 



She said all around me she could see hands holding out gifts to me which I had been ignoring for about 3 years. There was so much help, support and guidance around me if only I opened up and started to listen. I felt within myself that it was time to open up again but this time I was going to be in control of it. 



I think a part of why I shut it down was because it scared me. I would feel things, I would see flashing lights out the corner of my eye all the time. I was absolutely petrified that something would attach itself to me and I didn't want anything to come into my home. I told this lady my fears and she gave me a few tips on how I can be in control of my gift and not the other way around. This made me feel empowered and supported. 



After seeing her I decided it was time to open back up. I went out into my backyard, closed my eyes and meditated. While I was meditating I spoke with my angels and spirit guides and told them that I was prepared to be open again to their love, support and guidance. All of a sudden I felt them around me. I was enveloped in this presence. It wasn't scary, it was loving and peaceful. 



Ever since then I have not regretted opening myself up again. I believe it has truly helped me with my personal life and my business. Without it, I don't think I would be where I am today and now I am a reiki healer and women's circle host. 


We all have a gift, it is just some of us are open to it and others aren't.



"I'm not scared any more. I know I'm in control of it and I believe the spirit world knows this to. 



A few years back my hubby and I were away for the weekend and when we came back my mum told me that our cat was acting funny. She was scared and wouldn't come out from under the bed. That night I was alone in our house and I felt a lady presence. I heard her laughing, which gives me goose bumps as I type this. I knew that it was her that was scaring my cat which really pissed me off. 



I had no idea where she came from but she didn't scare me, which years ago she would have. So I took control of the situation. I went walking around my house in every room and told her to get out of my house. I was full on yelling and swearing at this spirit, I was so angry. How dare she come into my home and scare my cat. I wasn't having it. It sounds hilarious reading back at this, but it worked. She left and never came back. 



If you would like to know some tips on how to handle your gift if it is similar to mine, send me an email and I'd be happy to share them with you. 



The point of this blog series is to let you know that you can take control of your gift if you want it. You can also shut it down like I did for a couple of years if you don't want it. But I like to think that it was given to me for a reason so I'm going to use it to help other people and that is what I'm doing now with my reiki healings, which you can book here.



If you have any questions or want to share your story, please leave it in the comments below, I would love to hear from you. 


Be happy & healthy,